I don't know about you, but on occasion I have days where I just don't feel up to par. These days it seems like things that I normally can deal with on a daily basis rub me the wrong way. Today I was feeling selfish which is incredibly difficult for me to do. When I try to be selfish, I end up getting angry and lashing out because I know things probably aren't going to change. I will continue to be a caretaker who has difficulty being selfish and taking time for myself. So today I felt sorry for myself and was angry that I have been taking care of other people for almost 40 years.
When I was trying to nap and my husband was being too noisy, I got up and decided to take a walk. The first thing I determined while walking is that I was going to make some thing for dinner tonight that I wanted (quinoa and black bean enchilada bake). As I walked I was able to sort some things out in my head.
I passed by the Evergreen Cemetery just outside of town and decided this would be a good day for that type of visit. After wandering around and finding headstones that told me interesting stories in very few words, I happened upon the grave of a young girl who had been the daughter of our neighbor across the street. I knew that she had lost a daughter to drowning at the age of 7, but this was the first time I saw her name and details of dates. Not for away from her stone was another girl who was the same age and died the same day. It dawned on me then that there had been two girls who drowned the same day.
Tears welled up when I thought about this day that had started out like any other, but by the end of the day these two little girls were gone. It made me also reflect upon the fact that people we meet every day have stories and pain that we don't know about. They are way more than what we see so maybe it's a good idea to be kind.
Thought for the day: Always be kind for every one is fighting some kind of battle.
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