Well, once again my confidence has been shaken. Since moving to Wisconsin in November of 2011, we have owned two homes. Our home in Minnesota is for sale but with the weak housing market, it is still ours. We began renting it in June of last year so this allowed me to begin my journey of leaving the workplace. About ten days ago, I received a telephone call informing me that the renter had taken his own life. This news immediately made my thoughts go in the direction of needing to find a job. Of course this was the only solution; we needed more money. I grappled with this for a few days until I regained some clarity of thought and then began to look at other possibilities. My daughter encouraged me not to look for a job; things would work out.
For the past couple days, I have had the classic experience of having two small figures (one of each shoulder) going back and forth with conflicting advice. My responsible classical thinking self tells me I have no choice while my "think outside the box" self informs me there must be other ways to make this work. It tells me you want the summer off and do not want to sit in some office again giving your time and energy to some thing you don't really care about. You want to be available for your family, your home, the outdoors, etc. If you had the knowledge that your life would end soon, where would you want to be?
So this is my life right now; back and forth between conflicting ideas. I truly want to continue this journey.
Thought for today: A man sooner or later discovers that he is the master-gardener of his soul, the
director of his life. ~James Allen
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