And The Dream Goes On

Today marks one month since leaving the workplace. I haven't been bored for one moment and also haven't had one full week at home yet. Been traveling Grandma and was able to return to hometown for book club.

While in Alexandria, I felt a need to visit my roots. Drove the back roads of the area where I grew up and visited two cemeteries. The first was where my parents and several family members are buried, and the second has a few family members but mostly just familiar names that were part of my past. The images of my childhood were vivid as I put faces with the names and remembered the parts they played. The graveyard encompasses an old country church that didn't have running water when I first used to visit it. I can remember the Ladies Aid raising funds in order to have a "modern" kitchen and real bathrooms added, and this was in the 1970s.

At that time I seemed to be the only young person that stuck around, and the older ladies really appreciated me. I used to play the piano for some occasions and rarely did a piano solo for a meeting. Seems like a popular tune I used to do was "In The Garden".

Yesterday I gave myself permission to not only take two naps but to stay in bed for an extra couple hours in order to finish reading a book. It seems I find myself having inner discussions in regard to how much there is to be done and convincing myself there will be time to do it.

Here is a quote from the book that I found most true when it comes to forgiveness and letting go: "But it's not that easy." "Oh, but my treasure, it is so much less exhausting. You only have to forgive once. To resent, you have to do it all day, every day. You have to keep remembering all the bad things." "I would have to make a list, a very, very long list and make sure I hated the people on it the right amount. That I did a very proper job of hating, too: Very Teutonic! No, we always have a choice."

What Did I Learn? I choose to remember the good in life, the good in people. We all have made unwise choices and decisions, we all have shortfalls and weaknesses. But we all have strengths, as well. It's all part of our journey and lays the way for our dreams.