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Oh, Confidence, Where Are Thou?

This past week I seem to have been grappling with hanging on to confidence. Perhaps it is due to the change of seasons which always brings on a touch of depression (especially summer to fall). There is also the issue of my husband's job and the current and possible future lack of overtime. This has put him in a mood of gloominess which surrounds me like a cloud of smoke. Whatever the reason, there has been a struggle this week for me to remain confident.
Thinking of Henry David and his wisdom has helped, but I also realize that his pursuit of happiness and following dreams was nicely funded with the help of Ralph Waldo Emerson. In that time period, he also didn't have to wrestle with so many places that want your money. He could live simply without automobiles, insurance, licenses, telephones, utilities, etc.
Today we are leaving town for a week of vacation which will be spent in Minnesota visiting friends and relatives and hopefully not spending alot of money but attempting to keep it simple.
Good news is that the renter sent a check covering the rent until the end of the year. So we know it will work until January.
A bright spot was yesterday morning as I sat on the deck reading a book, I glanced up to see a hummingbird drinking nectar from my red geraniums. It was a brief encounter of maybe 20 seconds, but it gave me such much joy and hope. It was the lesson once again that we don't need much to make us happy; that tiny little creature brought me back to believing that dreams can come true.